Thursday, March 10, 2016

Life tries

Life tries to take control of situations it doesn't understand.
Nothing compares to what it was.
What it can be.
What it is.
Life leaves us to fend for ourselves
Among the lost and broken.
Calmly walk
Towards the light
of a new day that is calling you
Closer to the end.
Our lives ebb and flow.
We come closer, then we part
Over again until one day
The tide doesn't return
And all the pearls dry up in their shells.

Elizabeth Seibel
9/10/2015

I try too much

I try too much.
I cry too much.
I laugh too little.

I smile when I can.
I frown when I can't.
I make it work sometimes.

I give it a try.
I act like it's all good.
It's not. It's really not.

My life is different.
My life is completely the same.
What's going on?

I'm questioning everything.
I'm hearing answers.
I'm not sure.

They make it better.
They bring me back.
It's love like nothing else.

God, thank you..

Elizabeth Seibel
May 23, 2015

My Life. My Kids. My Decisions.

Yes, you can.
No, please don't.
It's my choice and you won't.
That is fine.
Yeah, go ahead.
Thanks for listening to what I said.
She's okay.
He doesn't need one.
Oh, look, now what have you done?
My kids are my life and I decide.
I know you mean well and you tried.
No more arguing.
This is my choice to make.
You aren't the parent so just give it a break.

Elizabeth Seibel
12/29/2014

Thursday, July 12, 2012

Hearts Collide


Hearts collide

How did we get here?
Where do we go now?
Can it be us? Just us?
We can walk together
Loving the moments
Forgetting the pain
Or maybe embracing the pain
Because we can handle it.
Are we alone now?
Take my hand and let’s fly
Back to where it began
Then forward to now.
What is that feeling?
Is it trust?
Is it hope?
Will it last?
Of course.
It has no end.
It has only forever and us.
Take my hand and let’s lay
On the mountain
And just be together.
Touch my heart
It says your name.
It beats with yours
And I sigh.
That smile that you give me
That feeling that overwhelms me.
Take my hand and let’s dance.
Our song is playing.
Can you hear it?
It is the wind through the trees
And laughter in our voices.
It is the sound of a car driving on a dirt road
Lost but exactly where it is meant to be.
 How did we get here?
We fell.
Where do we go now?
Anywhere.
Everywhere.
Can it be us? Just us?
Always.

Elizabeth Seibel – July 11, 2012

Monday, April 23, 2012

Changes


Changes

So often we ask for everything we want.
So often we get an answer we don’t like.
I asked for much and I got much more.
I asked for something simple and God gave me everything.
You were a surprise but you were what I needed.
You are more than what I had hoped for.
You are more than what I thought I deserved.
My happiness comes from knowing that you are mine forever.
All my desires have changed. They revolve around me and you.
God gives us more than what we want.
He gives us what we need. What’s best for us.
What will bring us to Him. Nothing will change that.

Elizabeth Seibel 4-14-2012

Waiting


Waiting

Love happens
So effortlessly
You with me
Wrapped up in happiness
Afterwards, we smile
We love
We live
The wait
The hope
I’m caught up in it
Thinking about it
But not too much
Trying to keep busy
We love
We live
We wait
In hope
That soon we
Will be more
Not just us,
But we with him
Or her
Whatever God decides
The wait is hard
But the love is easy.

Elizabeth Seibel  4/14/12

Wednesday, March 21, 2012

Let Me


Let Me
I’m not dwelling, I’m coping.
I’m not depressed, I’m sad.
I’m not over it, I’m living it.
My baby is gone and it’s okay for me to cry.
My baby died and it’s okay for me to remember.
My baby  was mine and now my baby is God’s.
I loved my baby with all my heart.
I praise God that my baby is with Him
Because if my baby can’t be with me, there is no better place.
I got to experience so much joy and excitement and hope for the future
And in just a moment that was taken away from me.
No warning.
I had so many plans and I know that I can still do those things, that having children is still an option for me but that is not a consolation for what I lost.
Telling me that I will have more children does not make it better that I lost my first baby.
I am allowed to grieve. I am allowed to remember. Giving me one week to move on is not fair.
I will take all the time I need and it’s okay with me if that’s not okay with you because you still have your kids. You have not experienced this loss.
I am so excited to have more babies in the future. Healthy babies that will make it full term. Happy babies that I will watch grow and that you will love with all you have as well.
But, right now, I want to love this baby and give this gift from God the acknowledgement that he/she deserves.
God gave me this baby and then took my baby back with Him to live in his kingdom. I love God and I love my baby.
Let me do that.

Elizabeth Seibel - January 13, 2011