Life tries

Life tries to take control of situations it doesn't understand.
Nothing compares to what it was.
What it can be.
What it is.
Life leaves us to fend for ourselves
Among the lost and broken.
Calmly walk
Towards the light
of a new day that is calling you
Closer to the end.
Our lives ebb and flow.
We come closer, then we part
Over again until one day
The tide doesn't return
And all the pearls dry up in their shells.

Elizabeth Seibel
9/10/2015

I try too much

I try too much.
I cry too much.
I laugh too little.

I smile when I can.
I frown when I can't.
I make it work sometimes.

I give it a try.
I act like it's all good.
It's not. It's really not.

My life is different.
My life is completely the same.
What's going on?

I'm questioning everything.
I'm hearing answers.
I'm not sure.

They make it better.
They bring me back.
It's love like nothing else.

God, thank you..

Elizabeth Seibel
May 23, 2015

My Life. My Kids. My Decisions.

Yes, you can.
No, please don't.
It's my choice and you won't.
That is fine.
Yeah, go ahead.
Thanks for listening to what I said.
She's okay.
He doesn't need one.
Oh, look, now what have you done?
My kids are my life and I decide.
I know you mean well and you tried.
No more arguing.
This is my choice to make.
You aren't the parent so just give it a break.

Elizabeth Seibel
12/29/2014

Hearts Collide

Hearts collide

How did we get here?

Where do we go now?

Can it be us? Just us?

We can walk together

Loving the moments

Forgetting the pain

Or maybe embracing the pain

Because we can handle it.

Are we alone now?

Take my hand and let’s fly

Back to where it began

Then forward to now.

What is that feeling?

Is it trust?

Is it hope?

Will it last?

Of course.

It has no end.

It has only forever and us.

Take my hand and let’s lay

On the mountain

And just be together.

Touch my heart

It says your name.

It beats with yours

And I sigh.

That smile that you give me

That feeling that overwhelms me.

Take my hand and let’s dance.

Our song is playing.

Can you hear it?

It is the wind through the trees

And laughter in our voices.

It is the sound of a car driving on a dirt road

Lost but exactly where it is meant to be.

 How did we get here?

We fell.

Where do we go now?

Anywhere.

Everywhere.

Can it be us? Just us?

Always.

Elizabeth Seibel – July 11, 2012

Changes

Changes

So often we ask for everything we want.

So often we get an answer we don’t like.

I asked for much and I got much more.

I asked for something simple and God gave me everything.

You were a surprise but you were what I needed.

You are more than what I had hoped for.

You are more than what I thought I deserved.

My happiness comes from knowing that you are mine forever.

All my desires have changed. They revolve around me and you.

God gives us more than what we want.

He gives us what we need. What’s best for us.

What will bring us to Him. Nothing will change that.

Elizabeth Seibel 4-14-2012

Waiting

Waiting

Love happens

So effortlessly

You with me

Wrapped up in happiness

Afterwards, we smile

We love

We live

The wait

The hope

I’m caught up in it

Thinking about it

But not too much

Trying to keep busy

We love

We live

We wait

In hope

That soon we

Will be more

Not just us,

But we with him

Or her

Whatever God decides

The wait is hard

But the love is easy.

Elizabeth Seibel  4/14/12

Let Me

Let Me

I’m not dwelling, I’m coping.

I’m not depressed, I’m sad.

I’m not over it, I’m living it.

My baby is gone and it’s okay for me to cry.

My baby died and it’s okay for me to remember.

My baby  was mine and now my baby is God’s.

I loved my baby with all my heart.

I praise God that my baby is with Him

Because if my baby can’t be with me, there is no better place.

I got to experience so much joy and excitement and hope for the future

And in just a moment that was taken away from me.

No warning.

I had so many plans and I know that I can still do those things, that having children is still an option for me but that is not a consolation for what I lost.

Telling me that I will have more children does not make it better that I lost my first baby.

I am allowed to grieve. I am allowed to remember. Giving me one week to move on is not fair.

I will take all the time I need and it’s okay with me if that’s not okay with you because you still have your kids. You have not experienced this loss.

I am so excited to have more babies in the future. Healthy babies that will make it full term. Happy babies that I will watch grow and that you will love with all you have as well.

But, right now, I want to love this baby and give this gift from God the acknowledgement that he/she deserves.

God gave me this baby and then took my baby back with Him to live in his kingdom. I love God and I love my baby.

Let me do that.

Elizabeth Seibel - January 13, 2011