Life as a Teacher

We go through so much on a day to day basis between grading papers, planning interesting lessons, managing behavior, and inspiring students. One thing I don't have to worry about is my pencil sharpener. I have a sharpener from classroomfriendlysupplies.com and I love it. My students love it too. It sharpens like no other pencil sharpener every single time. I give them time at the beginning of class to sharpen their pencils and don't have to hear another word about pencils for the rest of class. I love that these sharpeners do not over sharpen pencils. I don't have students up sharpening for 10 minutes because they know that once it is sharp the pencil sharpener stops working.

My joy comes when I have the chance to get a new sharpener! I love them so much that I collect them! I have turned other teachers on to these sharpeners. Classroomfriendlysupplies.com is giving away another sharpener and I have decided that if I win I will give one of my old classroomfriendlysupplies sharpeners to one of my fellow teachers.

Follow these links to try to win one for yourself:
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Hearts Collide

Hearts collide

How did we get here?

Where do we go now?

Can it be us? Just us?

We can walk together

Loving the moments

Forgetting the pain

Or maybe embracing the pain

Because we can handle it.

Are we alone now?

Take my hand and let’s fly

Back to where it began

Then forward to now.

What is that feeling?

Is it trust?

Is it hope?

Will it last?

Of course.

It has no end.

It has only forever and us.

Take my hand and let’s lay

On the mountain

And just be together.

Touch my heart

It says your name.

It beats with yours

And I sigh.

That smile that you give me

That feeling that overwhelms me.

Take my hand and let’s dance.

Our song is playing.

Can you hear it?

It is the wind through the trees

And laughter in our voices.

It is the sound of a car driving on a dirt road

Lost but exactly where it is meant to be.

 How did we get here?

We fell.

Where do we go now?

Anywhere.

Everywhere.

Can it be us? Just us?

Always.

Elizabeth Seibel – July 11, 2012

Changes

Changes

So often we ask for everything we want.

So often we get an answer we don’t like.

I asked for much and I got much more.

I asked for something simple and God gave me everything.

You were a surprise but you were what I needed.

You are more than what I had hoped for.

You are more than what I thought I deserved.

My happiness comes from knowing that you are mine forever.

All my desires have changed. They revolve around me and you.

God gives us more than what we want.

He gives us what we need. What’s best for us.

What will bring us to Him. Nothing will change that.

Elizabeth Seibel 4-14-2012

Waiting

Waiting

Love happens

So effortlessly

You with me

Wrapped up in happiness

Afterwards, we smile

We love

We live

The wait

The hope

I’m caught up in it

Thinking about it

But not too much

Trying to keep busy

We love

We live

We wait

In hope

That soon we

Will be more

Not just us,

But we with him

Or her

Whatever God decides

The wait is hard

But the love is easy.

Elizabeth Seibel  4/14/12

Let Me

Let Me

I’m not dwelling, I’m coping.

I’m not depressed, I’m sad.

I’m not over it, I’m living it.

My baby is gone and it’s okay for me to cry.

My baby died and it’s okay for me to remember.

My baby  was mine and now my baby is God’s.

I loved my baby with all my heart.

I praise God that my baby is with Him

Because if my baby can’t be with me, there is no better place.

I got to experience so much joy and excitement and hope for the future

And in just a moment that was taken away from me.

No warning.

I had so many plans and I know that I can still do those things, that having children is still an option for me but that is not a consolation for what I lost.

Telling me that I will have more children does not make it better that I lost my first baby.

I am allowed to grieve. I am allowed to remember. Giving me one week to move on is not fair.

I will take all the time I need and it’s okay with me if that’s not okay with you because you still have your kids. You have not experienced this loss.

I am so excited to have more babies in the future. Healthy babies that will make it full term. Happy babies that I will watch grow and that you will love with all you have as well.

But, right now, I want to love this baby and give this gift from God the acknowledgement that he/she deserves.

God gave me this baby and then took my baby back with Him to live in his kingdom. I love God and I love my baby.

Let me do that.

Elizabeth Seibel - January 13, 2011

Lost

Lost

I feel a loss so powerful

That I cannot breathe.
I cannot think.
But I can cry and I can pray.

When I found out about you I was so scared because I wanted everything for you and didn’t know if I could do that.

I went shopping for your clothes.

I got clothes to wear for when you changed my body.

I now wear those clothes to cover the scars from the surgery.

Daddy and I were looking forward to spending the holidays with you and finding out if you were a boy or a girl.

The blood that day was scary and I worried for you. All I could think about was whether you were okay or not.

The doctor didn’t give answers.

I went home and tried to relax so that you would be okay.

It happened again the next day, the blood, then the doctor.

But this time there was a concerned look on his face.

Daddy and I went to see a different doctor and he told us all about you.

He said that you had grown, only it wasn’t a place where you could stay.

I wanted so badly for it not to be true. I wanted him to say that we could save you.

Seeing you on the monitor filled me with so many emotions. I was so excited to finally see you, but I was so sad that I had to say goodbye.

Healing from the surgery keeps my mind busy, but healing from the loss of my precious baby will take more time.

You will always be with me. I will love you forever. 

Elizabeth Seibel - 1/9/2011

Baby of Mine

Baby of Mine

You will always be my first child.

You will always be the first reason I was called Mommy.

I would have done anything for you. In fact I gave up hot baths for you. Sitting in a warm bath was a sacrifice I was willing to make for you.

Daddy talked to you everyday for the week we had you here on Earth.

He loves you with all he is.

You brought me more joy than I knew possible.

Saying goodbye was one of the hardest things I have ever done.

I cannot wait to meet you in Heaven.

I know that you will keep watch over your little brothers and sisters.

No matter how many kids I have, you will always be my first.

I love you my darling child.

Dance in Heaven for Mommy.

 Elizabeth Seibel - 1/9/2011

Dedicated to the memory of Glory Seibel, taken from us too soon.